I know I said I wasn't going to play the distance game again, and that months have passed since I made my last post but things have been wild and chaotic. Many exciting yet strange events have invaded my life. Now that I have a little bit of time, I plan to fill you in. (I'll subcategorize each topic) School For the Spring Quarter I bravely attempted to fulfill 23 credits. By the middle of the quarter I realized that I was deeply over my head, but that didn't stop me. NO! I added more to my load. With 23 credits and the job as Vice President of service for Phi Theta Kappa, I became the Secretary of the Gay Strait Alliance also known as the Rainbow Pride Club. With this position I met a lot of very powerful people on campus and my horizons expanded beyond my wildest dreams. For those who know me you know that I have never ran with the popular individuals. You know that I have always held tight to my individuality. Well in this group I have both popularity and acceptance.  After a few weeks, people began coming over to my house and for once I felt like I was truly apart. Have a peek at all the cool events I've attended since I last posted.... (Feel free to click on the pictures to see more photos from these events) Jesilyn and Mr. Golden Sir' at the PTK March Social  Sumara, Chereda, Jesilyn, and Tamar on the Highline Community College Argosy Cruise. Chereda, Jesilyn, Matty, and his son Ryan at the PTK/GSA BBQ at Jesilyn's House. Jesilyn, Paige and Nicole at the PTK/Internationsl Club Halloween Party. Kamila, Laura, Jesilyn, and Paige speaks at the Phi Theta Kappa Induction Ceramony. Jesilyn Graduates with an Honors degree in Psychology! Yes It was an amazing quarter Loads of fun and many new relationships built. and speaking of relationships I suppose I should fill you in on my love life... Love Life As you can see from the March Social picture above, I have a new man in my life. For those who read the past few posts, I am pleased to inform you that that unique man I spoke of is the one and only Mr. Golden Sir'. This man makes my heart pound with his voice. He doesn't even have to touch me and I get lost. Basically the recent story goes like this... His x-wife has bought a new home and moved to Spokane and his children will follow as of the 25th. By the 21st his live in will be moving out and looking to buy her own home as well. All this, leaving him with many hard decisions.  The other night he picked me up. He was going to do one of two things depending on my reactions... he would 1. break things off or 2. begin to move ahead to the next step in our relationship. I suppose I said mostly the right things because he told me that he loved me (something he has put off saying for a long time...) He told me that if things keep going in this direction, that he would be willing to wear promise rings to show commitment. He told me that of all the choices he has at hand that the one thing he knows is that he can't envision life without me and that I am the only person he could see himself spending the rest of his life with. If I said I was emotional, it wouldn't be strong enough words. I wanted to cry...  As of now, we are taking things slow and we plan to get to know each other on a domestic level. (After all we already know each other on an intimate level and an intellectual level.) This basically means that we are going to start spending more time at each others homes after the 21st. I don't know what will happen... but I'm excited to find out. Shad Yes for those of you that are wondering, I am still speaking, visiting, and holding a relationship w/ Shad. However, since his mental status has been deteriating, I have become a little distant from him. Neither of us writes every often, and transportation keeps my visits few and far between. I just don't know what is going on any more. When I see him I get all emotional. I wish I could bring him home. At the same time I think reality has started taking it's toll and I am drained and feeling like things are moving ahead forcing us apart. It saddens me, and at the same time frightens me.I haven't talked to him about it since I told him I was developing feelings for Mr. Golden and he told me to stop seeing him, and I told him no. I suppose the future is yet to be told... Starla Star has been growing so fast. She is dating a new guy who I like a lot. He takes care of her and treats her well. He don't stand for her to disrespect me, and he tells her when she is fucking up. She is doing better for now... I just hope she holds on to him... (If he is what we see)... oh and he is a tattoo artist... look what he did for me... Dylan Dylan is being a radical lil boy. I am about ready to sew his pants to his ass (They fall off) I hate the style! and His mouth is getting bad enough to get soap. I have gotten him  few great role models and am hopeful that some of what they say to him sinks in... If not we are all in trouble because he already tried to charge me. I swept his legs and put him on his ass in the middle of the yard. No I didn't hurt him, but he was embarrassed to death. I doubt he will ever try to take the momma again! *Wink* Karin My god she is growing up so fast. She is 9 but looks 13. She trys to act like star and we have to stop her. she is starting to like boys, make-up and high heels. She wants to wear the belly tops and is already asking to have her hair dyed and her belly pierced. NOOOOO Way... I tell you. That lil one has another thing coming if she thinks she is gonna act like star... But then what 9 yr old doesn't want to grow up... right? Ellie Ellie is the baby. A mouthy baby but still mommy's baby. she is content in her role and even though she is faced w/ sibling rivalry all the time she still maintains her almost innocent self. Kids over all Over all the kids  are growing up and testing my nerves. Then again what are kids for right? lol every day is a new challenge. one wants to grow up too fast one too slow. One wants to run the roads and one don't want friends at all. One wants attention, the other feels smothered. They all need something and generally it's at the same time I need to study... Being a parent is probably the most challenging thing I will ever do.. Whats in the Future Well... I was awarded a $2000.00 Take Aim Scholarship and I will begin attending Central Washington University in the fall of this year. I will be majoring in Law and Justice and my minor will be in Psychology. Everything else is up in the air for now... but I am optimistic that the positive events of my recent past will continue...

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