HELLO STRANGERS...........

I'm sorry.. I have been so busy to write anything..

I let him come home and life here has been chaodic ever since.......I could not hurt his kids.I know they r suppose to b his responcibility but i love them too.....

so here I sit playing mommy to not only my 4 but his 3 too..7 kids I am a crazy woman....but hay, I wouldn't change things if I didn't have too..

Starla my oldest is on vacation.she is spending 10 days at a friend of my house..kid needed a break and whats a better way for her to get it...she hates his oldest daughter any way.so go figure.....

I am remodeling my house...painting, cleaning and rearranging everything.yippy.... its work but it is making me feel good...when ur house makes u happy...it helps w/ depression....I don't wanna just sit back and be a winer...have people asking if I want a little cheese with my wine.....I know that was a bad joke but I'm honost..If life sux......well change it..don't waller in filth clean the cob webs out of the attic.... My attic is my brain...and when the cobwebs of depression and anger hit I clean it up.....

I am a fix it person.it's part of codependancy u feel the need to fix everything even when its out of ur control...like ronnie.I hope I will grow out of it.learn alittle healthy selfishness....thats what the counselor calls it....I call it dusting...

ok...I'm gonna go.have a wonderful day/night, write more soon

jesilyn

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