( ON MY OWN)( age 15 )

In March 1988 I made my big escape. I arranged for my father to meet me at a skating rink where we would leave from and never return. When Maryanne came to pick me up I was no where to be found. Sorces say she gave me a running chance. she waited to call me in and did not tell my mother either. Bless her heart She made the best discission.

As we left that night I was again betrayed by my father I was soon to find out just how much of a lier he was. We passed the exit where my husband was doing seventy miles per hour. When I questioned his reason he simply told me that Johnny did not wanna go with me....

I cried but, could not turn back. If I had asked my father would have let me out to walk and lord knows I wasn't interested in that. How would I explain this. Never! I kept going.

We went to Arkansas, a place I had lived before with him. I began to be pressured again by my father to do sexual favors and I knew I was not going to let that happen. So in a fit of desparation I cashed in a 2000$ bond and moved out. I got my own apartment.***********pt4

I filled my apartment with the things I needed food, clothes (five outfits) bathroom stuff, new dishes and alot of milk crate furniture.

Hay it was clean and I was safe from the sexual abuse. I can't say that it was great I was so scared and intemidated by being alone. I would lock the doors, close the blinds and hide in the bathroom. I slept in a three foot square behind a locked bathroom door where no one had to know I was home at all.

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