Fantasy Verses Reality Vol. 1

I went to the hospital several times each time same story some ass hole male dr. would tell me to go home and put my feet up..... finially Dec 16th I got a female who sent me for an ultrisound and thats when my life shattered again...The baby was dead and I needed a DNC... (for those of u that don't know what that is..it's where they dialate u and scrape all the stuff out of ur uterus..It's not painful just emotional)

I remember laying there after the medication.. I remember one tear slowly falling out of my eyes...

Then I remember waking up alone scared and empty!!! Donnie had went home to bathe and my Mother was there...Just what I needed..I asked her to get a preacher only because they aren't suppose to lie..

He told me what the hospital had done with my baby which only sent me into further fits....

The doctor told me I'd never carry a child I might get pregnate but carry one NEVER!!! all I ever wanted was a family now they were telling me that dream was over....what ass holes..15 yrs old and nothing to hold onto.......

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My name is Jesilyn. I'm a forty year old mysterious spirit. I have survived the depths of poverty; experienced the wrath of wealth, studied psychology & several religions, evolved from a jagged family background where I suffered the hands of abuse, and now I stare life�s challenges in the eye.

Favorite Quotes

"The glass isn't half full or half empty. It simply needs a little ice."

"I maybe the queen of broken hearts but I don't stand behind the crown"

"If your ever going to see a rainbow you've got to stand a little rain."

"Good things come to those who wait."

"Life is what you make it."

"When life gives you lemons: Make lemonade!"

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