Fantasy Verses Reality Vol. 1

( My wild days began with the help of my father )

My father allowed me to run my own life. Treating me like an adult I was never denied my own discissions. Drugs were fine , alcohol was fine, even sex was fine. Lord and behold when we left I was unaware that I was about 2-3 wks pregnate with the child of my teen age lover Russell. This child was a loss waiting to happen. My teenage body was not ready to except the terms of pregnacy especially after all those years of sexual abuse. I lost my son and honostly I was full of too much fear to even tell anyone what was happening.

I lost alot of blood and I became more and scared. Alone I handeled the situation using baby diapers to stay dry. By the time my father knew I was bleeding the evidence of pregnacy was gone after all

I had been bleeding for over a month.

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About Me:

My name is Jesilyn. I'm a forty year old mysterious spirit. I have survived the depths of poverty; experienced the wrath of wealth, studied psychology & several religions, evolved from a jagged family background where I suffered the hands of abuse, and now I stare life�s challenges in the eye.

Favorite Quotes

"The glass isn't half full or half empty. It simply needs a little ice."

"I maybe the queen of broken hearts but I don't stand behind the crown"

"If your ever going to see a rainbow you've got to stand a little rain."

"Good things come to those who wait."

"Life is what you make it."

"When life gives you lemons: Make lemonade!"

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