LET'S TALK ABOUT THE WONDERFUL SUBJECT OF SEX

I am not about to talk about sex in a sluggish, unmoral fashion so, If u are looking for that look else where. I want to talk about the emotional bond that a sexual relationship creats and what happens to a person when these needs continue to go unmet.

OK.... so I am beating around the bush, partially because I am faced with a very stressful situation.

It's been almost nine months since I have had romantic contact with my boyfriend... I know b4 u say anything please listen.... It is not from lack of desire on my part because I have tried everything candel light, sexy outfits, incents, purfume, all sorts of sexual contact and still he has no interest when it comes to satisfying my needs....

I know what u'd say get rid of him right??? that's what everyone says....find some one else.but I can't....

Comming from an abused back ground has taught me that there is more to sex than just the act of doing it.. There needs to be meaning and security in order for the romance to be involved....

For years I had sexual abusive relationships... Weather my body was violated by force or violated

through manipulation it was still abuse.... I have never had a problem finding a partner nor satisfying one...

This is the first time.....so I am having mulitple emotional problems due to the situation.... If I cheat then I would feel like a slut and by doing without I feel neglected...

There are plenty of men who find me attractive and I know on a personal level that I am at the least pretty in the face.......

So what is his problem, some say it is all the pain from his marriage that created the lack of sexual need... some say that it was the three years that he was inactive.... he had gotten use to satisfying himself so he doesn't feel the desires....

What am I going to do about it... well I guess I will continue to deal until something changes......

I do not think I'll cheat but somewhere something will break...

as for the moral behind this entry......

Remember that making love is much differant than just having sex... Be conciderate of the others feelings.... and aware of ur own as well.

with that I'll close....

JESILYN

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