FINANCIALLY BETTER- EMOTIONALLY DEPRESSED
2001-07-28 1:19 a.m.
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I was finially eating and the weight was comming on strong.. Months of not eating was making me gain faster.. I gained almost 80lbs with starla...in the matter of 4 months.... Everyday I would examine my body for new stretch marks and everyday I would cry....I watched as my perfect teenage body became big fat and the stretch marks made my stomach look like a map.... Everyday I would spend thinking that something was gonna happen and This baby was gonna leave me.... I lost interest in everything between sickness and depression I was a lost soul... Donnie had started parting again. he was drunk most the time and yet I hung on.... During this time he was making pretty good money and he lavished me with gifts from rent to own companys..... we had the most bueatiful apartment..full of great stuff.... I will never in all my years forget the country blue livingroom suit with high backs and fluffy pillows. matching tables and the entertainment center from hell......we had everything until....... Donnie got layed off.... |
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