ISN'T LIFE AMAZING!!!!!!!

As I sit here this evening I find my self dreaming....dreaming about what I want outta life dreaming about what it would be like if I could have even a fraction of happieness. Sure I am somewhat content, but at the same time I know I deserve better....

I long for romance and I long for security.I want to be held close and made to feel special.I am dying to enjoy life and have to be able to focus on other things in life than bills and society..

People in this world fight everyday to get everything they can when all I want is a family. A family that will except me for me and not turn me down when i need emotional support.

I want a man in my life who will make me feel like I am the best thing on earth. I want to know that he needs me and loves me unconditionally. I'm not seeking perfection just pure uncorrupted love. I am hoping that I will find that special man who can take away my fears with a touch of his hand. Remove my pain with just a kiss from his lips. A man who when he holds me in his arms I know serurity.

My home need not be from the better homes and gardens book..but comfortable. Pretty plants, pictures on walls. clean without bugs. and away from the gettos that I have been forced to call home..

I want to be respected in my community. but excepted for who I am not what this world wants me to be.

I have dreams about my children growing up. susceeding and making familys of their own. family get togethers and adventurous vacations...

these r my dreams, my desires. the way I really want my future to be.. will it happen??? I don't know.. BUT< I do know that i am trying my damndest in hopes that I will get as close to this dream as possible.

AFTER ALL I'M A SURVIVER!!!!!

JESILYN

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