Fantasy Verses Reality Vol. 1

Have you ever been lost in your own imagination? hiding out searching for your hearts true desires.

dreaming of your soul mate and what your perfect life would be if only you could forfill your dreams????

this is where I stand tonight..grasping, reaching and desiring companionship...needing to find forfillment in life..yet not knowing which direction to look. I have been looking through the files in my own attic, trying to find out where I lost my idenity...

If I awoke tomorrow and could have my lifes desires I believe that I would only ask for the basics... a comfortable home that belonged to me. full of love and compassion, respect and peace.. A complete family who understands me and is willing to sacrafice everything to stay together.

A family who openly expressed love and enjoyed each others company...

I would want a job and a personal life outside my home.... friends who also enjoyed my company ...

I don't wanna be rich or famous.... I just want to feel excepted....and apart of a family (this is not intended to insult my kids) it is to enhance there well being..they deserve two loving parents and the security of a whole family....

I guess i am just living another crazy fantasy....

it is a bueatiful thought though....

JESILYN

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About Me:

My name is Jesilyn. I'm a forty year old mysterious spirit. I have survived the depths of poverty; experienced the wrath of wealth, studied psychology & several religions, evolved from a jagged family background where I suffered the hands of abuse, and now I stare life�s challenges in the eye.

Favorite Quotes

"The glass isn't half full or half empty. It simply needs a little ice."

"I maybe the queen of broken hearts but I don't stand behind the crown"

"If your ever going to see a rainbow you've got to stand a little rain."

"Good things come to those who wait."

"Life is what you make it."

"When life gives you lemons: Make lemonade!"

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