All day today I have been watching VH1 on television...they have been doing the top 80 of the 80's , You know this brought back memorys ... I think I got more done than I have in a long time... The music back then was inspiring and fun... even though times were tough, I found my peace in artists like bonjovi, poison, europe, madonna and others like them.

It was also groups like twisted sister that taught me that it was ok to be differant...

I wasn't a popular child, I didn't follow the crowd...I held on to my own values and walked my own way...I wasn't a in style dresser, and I was usually behind everyone else on my choices of music.. By the time I was 13 in junior high school I found parachute pants, crop tops and revieling mini skirts..I soon became popular...I took a new view on life and my image showed it...even then it was a unique look because it wasn't in style... I never cared...didn't wanna be like every one else.... I had my friends and thats what mattered.....

It was about that time that I found out that I was admired and that people thought I was pretty....then again..i wore make up and big hair..i took pride in being sexy...It got me attention...when I walked down the streets heads turned...and that made me feel good....

I sure miss those days...

I decided today that once i get moved that I am going to start wking twords getting my image back!!!! It's time I quit acting like an old lady and find my spunk....I'm gonna start taking pride in myself again...I want to take up walking and excersizing...maybe get my figure back...after all my figure has created alot of termoil in my life...being a mother has been great but unfortuanately I can't use that as an excuse forever... My baby is 4 now..... Look good feel good!!!!

I think my looks controls my additude twords myself and my life... I think it gives me strength and self confidence when I look good...any way I'm gonna close for now....still working on that schedual goal!!!!

Jesilyn

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