life is truely amazing....tonight i was talking to a guy that i met on the net...we spoke about how it feels when love falls apart...this guy is so sweet and had been hurt terribly by a woman who is very selfish and uncaring...its only good point is that my friend hadn't moved in with her yet....can u imagine how much harder it would have been for him iffin he had...I can because I've been there too many times...but the subject is heart break and what its like to bounce back...

today was his x/g/f's b=day and he spoke of how hard it was for him to not call her...boy can I relate...I bought a calling card last night and as i thumbed thru my rollerdex I came accrossed my dark princes ph # I wanted to call so bad just to say hello and i still think about you but instead I put my foot down and said no way! not until he contacts me....it burned my body from head to toe...opened old wounds that I thought was over and gone....

why does a soul harbor pain when the other party sleeps without a care in this world...why is it so easy for some ppl to get over heart ache without even lookin back while others fall apart...its a mystery and a hard lesson..... I have been both kinds of people at differant times but somin I learned is when u find a new love it surely releases all the pain if only 4 awhile...then in my case it happens all over again...I guess thats how life goes ...some when and some loose its how u play the game that says who u really are....find strength in your pain and know that no matter what u r not alone....

C soon!

Jesilyn

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