I am so sick today....the headache I had yesterday is still lingering...surely the dr. is right about the pinched nerve...and the pain meds for the tooth only upsets my stomach even worse...making me wonder if it is worse to hurt or get sick til my stomach bleeds....

I hate these pain pills....they r much too strong.

and without the phinagain my stomach just won't take this....but without the pain pills the pain will creat heart problems because of the anxiety level....After the heart attack Aug 1 2000 I do not wish to push the issue of the heart....I've been under enough strain with the current situations to add anything else...

Last night I was being pushed by my best friend...she has it in her mind that my beliefs r gonna send me strait to hell...that she has to save me...she just can not grasp that in my faith I have chosen wicca...as my way of living and that wicca's one rule harm none covers every one of the ten commandments....and being wiccan is being human...mistakes r made and that is life....

during my discussion with her my fellow wpg members and I also talking about religion...they gave me advise to try to help but no matter what I said my friend would come back that I am wrong....So I asked her to join us hoping to get her to understand...she did and after she could not comprehend how we felt he stormed off....I had really hoped she would c that we mean her no harm....

My baby just lost her 1st tooth!!!!!! now karin is snaggle toothed lol......yahhhhh!!! She is so excited....she gets to get a visit from the tooth fairy....

Anyway back to what I was saying....she left us without ever really listening...she kept saying MY GOD or U'R GOD she just couldn't comprehend that it is our god....I dont know what I'm gonna do...she hasn't spoken to me all day and that in its self hurts....I hope she don't decide that she is gonna abandon me as her friend..because I truely love her and don't think god would want that either..

anyway I don't feel good and can't focus long on one thought so I'm gonna close c-soon....

B.A.

(this is how I'm gonna start ending with this name ty)

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