Life on the home front has been full of emotional rollercoasters.... as the feelings between myself and my new friend rise to even greater heights...then there are the lows when reality reaches up and bites me on the ass...

talks of real life have taken much of our time these days which is the focus of this entry. As perfectly suited as this one appears to be even with optimism in my pocket I find it hard to believe that we will ever be anything more than really good friends.

He falls into just about every catagory I am looking for. He has a great personality a mixture of humor, and romance. He is open minded in all the right areas. He enjoys alot of my favorite things and is a poet...he can send me to the highest heavens with his words.

I feel alive when I am talkin to him...every inch of my body tingles and the word special ...well it isn't a strong enough word to describe how he makes me feel. I had almost forgotten what a male spiritual connection was like then one day out of the blue here I was face to face with a perfect soul mate.

3000 miles distance us. and the IF ONLYS fill my mind every second of the day.... What was once a fantasy connection has turned to love and this Angel is falling faster everyday. I am relying on the powers that be to catch me and wrap me in the security blanket keeping me safe and warm...hopefully he will also be caught in the same blanket.....

With that I will close

until another time...

B.A.

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