Just call it Holiday blues....Or PMS what ever you choose...Today is a really bad day...the kids have gotten on my nerves worse today than they have in a long time...

I know the holidays have me down featuring i am broke...and I'm not gonna be able to give the stuff that I normally would...or even something at all to my family...

I wanna be so many differant places at this time of year..I would love to go home...this is the 3rd christmas away from my family in ohio... Then I wanna be with My new love again an impossible idea... So all in all my heart just isnt into the festive spirit...

Personally I would just love to crawl in a hole and not come out til after New Years...But with children that just isn't possible....so here I am cryin tears in my pepsi wishin I were places that I can't be and doin things I would kill to do...

I hope next year brings happieness to my life...that would be the best thing that could happen...

Ok I'll knock off the sadness and carry myself away from this damn pc long enough to collect my thoughts...maybe I'll go to bed earley for a change...After all Sg isnn't on to spend time with...he's at a sleep clinic...which worries the shit outta me...what can I do 3000 miles away...NOT A DAMN THING!!!! ok ok I said I was goin and I am...Wish me luck....

BA

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