Fantasy Verses Reality Vol. 1

call it sexual insomnia, that man got my nerves torn up tonight....he is somin else...and when he talks my heart crys out...yes yes yes....tonight its a differant type of sexual awareness its not fantasy or even what u would call hard core...its a romantic need...the need to b held, the need to b understood , romanced and such....of course those emotions also lead to the hormonal outbursts....which by all means isn't so bad if he and I were together...

I know it's just a matter of time and the wheels r rolling but, every minuet feels like eturnity.

After our talk tonight my mind was just to active to sleep...I cleaned the house top to bottom .... I even folded the clothes that have laid on the couch for a week...now u know I hav too much on my mind... life is so strange...and i keep waitin on the boat to sink...nothing good , should i say this good happens to me... and to think a love so pure , so excitin, so wonderful is within grasp is like wow.....I keep waitin in the clouds to release me and the sudden stop of death...I am truely in heaven with David in my life.... oh well its after 7am now i hav to get the kids up 4 school...then after they leave i might try to lay dn 4 a few hrs.... c soon BA

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My name is Jesilyn. I'm a forty year old mysterious spirit. I have survived the depths of poverty; experienced the wrath of wealth, studied psychology & several religions, evolved from a jagged family background where I suffered the hands of abuse, and now I stare life�s challenges in the eye.

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