Fantasy Verses Reality Vol. 1

I have finially calmed down enough to write about my evening.....earlier today I was so happy I had finially gotten my belly button peirced....i came home...slightly sore after a few hrs i layed down...I was woke up by a screaming child, mom he been hit again...it was dylan and he was telling me that my pup got hit again...yes this is the same lil shit I just spent over a hundred dallors gettin fixed a week or so ago when he got hit...the same pup I saved from a vet that wanted to murder him...I had nursed him back to health he was running again...his stiches almost healed...

I told the kids " DO NOT LET HIM OUT SIDE!!!!" what they do...they let him out now he is dead....I have cried and shook and fell in and out of shock....by the time i got to the street his blood was everywhere and he was taking his last breath....a peice of me died on that street....I tried to save the life of that pup....and I failed...I failed him...and I failed me....I am so depressed tonight...then again who wouldn't b after all that...

I took a bath by candel light and meditated for a while...I cleaned my house and now I am back to thinking about Oscar....that blood...I can not handel death...I'll never understand why....

I guess I am rambeling I'll cut out now....

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My name is Jesilyn. I'm a forty year old mysterious spirit. I have survived the depths of poverty; experienced the wrath of wealth, studied psychology & several religions, evolved from a jagged family background where I suffered the hands of abuse, and now I stare life�s challenges in the eye.

Favorite Quotes

"The glass isn't half full or half empty. It simply needs a little ice."

"I maybe the queen of broken hearts but I don't stand behind the crown"

"If your ever going to see a rainbow you've got to stand a little rain."

"Good things come to those who wait."

"Life is what you make it."

"When life gives you lemons: Make lemonade!"

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