I am very tired right now I hav spent days with very lil sleep....but I am hanging tough....

I read pages in a friends diary that caused grief today...that probably makes that person happy...as for me I am far from happy about it.....

I have been judged and bashed and yet I refuse to stoop to the level of retaliation..... I believe that my friend and mentor will again show her self...it may take months or even years but one day that person will wake up and realize that he gave up everything for a fantasy.....sad really....

my thoughts and energy goes out to everyone who is involved in the termoil...I know everyone is hurtin and I am deeply affected by the chaois....

My heart goes out to my closest friend sharon who by far does not deserve the pain she is facin....it's hard to believe all the happieness that we shared as a family is now gone..... Sharon I luv ya hun, we all do....and I promise as long as there is a breath in my body I will b here 4 u....

ARYN I say this here...I love ya too...I wish things were differant...I hope u the best in life....if there is a life....I know u hav several personalitys I miss the one known as aryn/momma. as for the kasura side...well it seems to me kasura has lost more than she will ever gain....and I pity that part of tammie.

and then there is todd, I hope that what ever happens, the gods hav mercy on your soul....u r loosing a wonderful woman i hope what ever ur plans r now that they r worth it....I thought u were bein honost when u promised a life long friendship then i find u to b a man not so worthy of my trust and admiration....

as for me...I am sad and hurt but I have the support of the best damn friends a person could ever hav and i will grow from this experiance....

blessed be:

BA

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