The crazieness of the last few days has been an eye opener. or should I say Ice breaker for pulling my self out of the bullshit I been sitting in.Ronnie is still in jail as far as I know, and the restraining order is in place. I am trying to pull everything together and stay busy. in the last few days I have been rearranging my house I even put the computer back in the living room where it belongs. incase you haven't read back to Nov. 2001 I had moved it in there so I could be left alone by him and at the time his kids. I can now open the window and door and feel the sun shine on my face...not that I really like the sun, but I do like the feeling of being able to breath again.

The kids are actually getting back on schedual, they get up on time, we cast our circle of meditation be fore parting for the day. when they return home from school they do homework and chores then we watch a movie or two...eat dinner and they get baths and off to bed...even I been laying down before 4am again...then again I am not worring if Ronnie is gonna pull somin stupid...he's not here to cause me that kind of worry.

I do feel sorry for him though, he just couldnt quit, he has to constantly drink and impare his judgement...I wonder if he will ever open his eyes to what he is doing...I can no longer let him affect our happieness and future. what he did was completely outta line and I wish him the best..as if I don't follow my faith that way Karma just might kick me in the teeth.

The landlord came by yesterday I am gonna pay him wedensday and the house is then mine. he seemed very happy with all the work I have done and was glad to help remove all the excess junk from the carport...

It's gonna be a rough month but I can do it. I just hope that the god/goddess continues to provide me with strength and love and keeps my family together.

with that I'll close...

Brightest Blessings

BA

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