this week has been mild but bust. I been catchin up on house wk. and gettin laundry conquared. John has helped alot with the kids and some minor bills . that is a blessing. at least i could use some of what I had for grocerys. It's tight but we are surviving. I'm feeling a lil stronger and not quite as shakey. Tomorrow we go to court over the restraining order. I had my counselor write a letter of reccommendation. it basically says that the issues of emotional abuse and alcoholism has created an unsafe enviorment for me and my kids and that it would b in our best interest for Ronnie not to return to the house. She also suggested theropy and meds for ronnie. I hope that her letter helps.

I know it's gonna b hard 4 awhile but I also know when times are tough I usually pull thru. so cross your fingers and send good vibs that things will continue to get better.

I do still feel sorry for ronnie but I know I can not change him and that my life must go on. No amount of Love can change an alcoholic and my love is no exception....I learned my lesson in the past. it's time to just pick up the peices and move on.

No one deserves to be abused. If u have been a victom of abuse seek help. my mother was murdered in a violent relationship I personally don't want to follow suit. Do U?

Brightest Blessings

BA

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