Today I am going to talk about growth:

Not just physical growth but inner growth. The last few weeks have taught me to entertain myself to look deeper within for happieness. Yes I hate being in a big house alone. but then I haven't been alone much in my life. I get bored, I get thinking its bad at times....but, all in all its not unbareable.

I don't have to answer to anyone. I come and go as I choose. I go to bed when I want and get up when I want. There is no one to bitch at me if I don't do things their way....Do I want to stay like this forever...Well...NO...but I can handel it for awhile.

gets a lil easier, things are happening to keep us comfortable and for that I am greatful. John went to the grocery with us yesterday. (thats the kids dad) he was suppose to shop for himself and help with the food cost for this week. instead he moved me to the side and covered the entire cost of this weeks groceries. That was nice. I never ask for much and when he does stuff like that it's special...

I get some of the strangest looks when he and I are out together. I over look it most the time...I guess The kids r lucky to have two parents who try to get along for the kids sake.

I'm still not eating very much but then comfort food was alot of my trouble before..now that the stress is releasing the need to eat like that is leaving as well...I know I have lost a few lbs but how much I hav no idea..(not enough in my book)

The kids are gettin back to schedual. We do everything together the house stays clean and I noticed they play together a lil better. These are all good things...

any way I guess the blessings are still around I just needed to open my eyes and look a lil bit.

Brightest Blessings

BA

You can read older entries by visiting the achieves on the right. Thank You For Visiting!