Updating for the next few days will b impossible. I am under major stress and my life has taken another turn....I am dealing with a loss that is too embarrassing for words and the one person that understands me right now is feeling many of the same feelings.

I will not tell you why but My life with David is over and I am taking time out to heal. I don't know what to feel...dont ask me why but even though he has done something prime awful I still love him. he is important to my life. I will try to stay in contact with him....however I know that it's over especially after the vertict is read......

during this time I hav met on the phone the woman he was going to leave. she is a really nice person. she and I have some what bonded. we share many of the same feelings that most can not bring them selves to understand. I feel pulled to call her. I feel even more pulled to know her. I appreciate her not slamming the phone in my ear. I can feel her pain and I never felt so guilty. he turned out to be nothing like anyone ever imagined..even her and she spent 14 yrs with him ....wow talking a smack. I'm done...no more...I sware the next idiot w/ balls that approaches me is gonna catch hell...

anyway its almost 3:30am. I hav kids to get up in the morn. keep the healing vibs comming as I am sending most of mine to washington...there is three people there that need all the support of goodness they can get....NO! I don't hate him.....just so u know.....

Brightest Blessings

BA

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