Fantasy Verses Reality Vol. 1

Life what can I say.... Its an adventure of the unknown. *sigh* I have recieved two letters from David in two days and each he tells me of his love for me. he tells me how much he needs me and what my support means to him... If he only knew my dreams, my hopes...that my life seems so empty without him...what am I going to do?

I still wait on his call and even sleep with the phone. each nite I return to the out doors to send my love thru the stars. I try to hang on to hope and faith and look for goodness in those around me.This not being a very easy job any more...It gets harder and harder to b optimistic when u feel u have been cursed to a life alone.

I don't sit around crying, I am working hard to stay busy ...I clean house I play neo, I try to converse with my family on line...but sometimes when no one is around I lay and cry.

I have heard it said that crying clenses the soul and that its a good releast but, I feel that u can cry too much.

Jenny called me awhile ago, It was nice to hear from her I had been so worried. I never know what to think and when she goes so long without talking I begin to think I said somin wrong...I don't want to loose another friend:(

ok well Im gonna go may write more later

brightest blessings

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My name is Jesilyn. I'm a forty year old mysterious spirit. I have survived the depths of poverty; experienced the wrath of wealth, studied psychology & several religions, evolved from a jagged family background where I suffered the hands of abuse, and now I stare life�s challenges in the eye.

Favorite Quotes

"The glass isn't half full or half empty. It simply needs a little ice."

"I maybe the queen of broken hearts but I don't stand behind the crown"

"If your ever going to see a rainbow you've got to stand a little rain."

"Good things come to those who wait."

"Life is what you make it."

"When life gives you lemons: Make lemonade!"

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