electric problem......bad electric problem had to balance check book and when I did I found a whole 80 dallors Not exactly close to $633.51 is it? (and they wanted all that money by the 24th... NOT!) no cc's, no other cash.... Scared to death I called the Electric company told them about my situation, that was just too close .they made special arrangements. thank goddess.. I hav to pay current month plus 130.22 every month for 6 months.......

I sware I get so tired of bills, everytime i think Ive got a hold on things somin else happens...I had the electric down to $125 a few months ago...and cause i was late a few times and struggeling with everything...no thanks to ronnie they demanded a $380 some deposit..I paid almost $500 last month.....I had to catch up on my rent and pay off pc and other stuff this month...then they hit me for some out ragious not possible bill....CRAZY! I am going to go crazy if this keeps up...

I would hav much rather have found a letter from David in my mail box...at least that would have lit some thing in my world....I get so tired....so tired of all the shit life dishes me...At least I have my children...My rainbow... may reason for carring on.... With out them I would curl up and let go of hope...but with them I cant...*sigh*

I found out today that the phone problem w/ david is not w/ me. jenny called last night. she told me to call phone company, i did, and they told me to call jail. the jail gav me a 800#. this was to a guy who deals w/ inner jail blocks. i left him a message, when he called back he said he would wk on the problem. sadly, it might take 2 weeks *sigh*

"IT BETTER NOT!!!! I CAN'T WAIT THAT LONG!!!!!.....ITS BEEN A MONTH DAMNIT!!!!!!!"

I now have his calling hours so I can actually leave the house, or put the phone on charge... he can use phone between 8am-9pm his time so 11am to 12 midnite ours....jenny said he is freakin out over callin me. that he just keeps tryin. and it says ur call cant b completed as dialed...

he goes back to court tomorrow. I need to do somin tonight...special.. I will be out in the yard maybe for several hours...heck I never know what I will decide to do....especially when it comes to my ceramonys... I need more candels so when I leave to pick up star I will try to stop at the $ store for supplys...

I sent him 3 more 10 page letters today...I hope that my letters make him somewhat warm and fuzzy inside...cause out here My heart is breaking with each day...that I dont get a phone call...

Ok time to go I hav bitched enough...dont forget to look back to c if u missed an entry I hav left 3 in the last 24 hrs...may do more later alot in my head...

Brightest Blessings

BA

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