wow...what a last few days...I been down with my back again....last night I pulled a swift one. I took my antidepressants, a nerve pill cause I was upset, and a tylonol 3 (codine) for my back and hand. well don't ever do this people because I didnt wake up til 4pm this afternoon...yes it was well needed sleep but gezzzz... scarey really...I mean hell who would hav known they said it was safe for them to be taken together, they didn't say to seperate the pills or nothing...oh well...live and learn. at least I was blessed with another day.

I haven't told u I don't think but I am now temp'n for our guild leader asa. its a ton of hard work and very very time consuming. but well... worth it! The ppl in our guild family mean so much to me I feel honored to have been chosen, though I do hope she returns soon....believe me being council is a peice of cake compared to being responcible for 5000 people and their guild benifits...and if u only seen some of the neomails I read each day...*Sigh* u meet alot of interesting people to say the least.

My arm and leg are healing and I'm not wearing the brace anymore that thing got on my nerves!. who can type with somin holding your wrist strait...two finger typing is no fun when u have tons to do...but its over now and I'm getting back to normal.

My belly button is infected again. Damn me for bragging that it was completely healed. its swollen and sore and icky stuff comming out...back to the drawing board. I called a friend who peirces and she said it can take up to two years for a belly button to completely heal. she says that the ingeries I had don't help either...who would have known? not me...but I'll dr. it until its healed again I like it never the less...

me and etha had it out again...I wish she could just understand that we r differant but that I love her. that I don't want her to change me...that even though we don't agree that It don't mean we can't be friends...It makes me feel bad really...I almost wish I hadn't told her anything about my situations...because now she fires at me every time we talk...there are other things in the world that we do agree on...why do we always have to talk about things that makie us argue, things that she knows I am going to follow my own heart no matter what she says....*sigh* I fear that given time we will loose our friendship and thats sad because we were once so close and I havn't changed...she just can't deal with all the things that I have been thinking and doing for years....

the very thing that made us sisters is going to tear us apart, sad and hurt is the only words i can use to describe that....

I have been working hard on davids diary to make it the best it can be. I believe in his mission so much. maybe if ppl read what he writes they will think twice before doing anything that can jeprodize their freedom. I love that man, and I will stand behind him....no matter what the future holds for us romantically I am his friend formost and most important!

lets c what else? well...since I can't think of nothing I guess its bed time...and u know just as soon as my head hits the pillow I'll remember somin else i should hav said....lol...

oh well...I'm outta here.

Brightest Blessings

BA

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