LIFE: let me thgink about this for a moment, u r born, u live , u die, some where in the middle u survive and seek your happieness...yep thats what I think it is...but when u you ever get to enjoy the happieness before someone some where destroys it to the fullest. I just don't know...I spend less and less time writing here not because i don't have nothing to say but because I was looking for a way to make positive entrys..a way to show that I have yet to loose home in society. yes my hopes grow dim and my happieness slows to a snail pace but I am still alive. I am free and i have the right of choice...yes I know these things appear simple and yet they are so important. lately I have been doing self and world evaluations, and taking notice of others reactions especially where love and family are concerned...does this world really know what the word family means any more or do they believe a family is replaceable like a plastic spoon or paper plate..I am beginning to wonder I mean really. I have sat and watched those who I concider family slice there own members throats...its ok during the good times but let something happen big or small and people walk away as if they were complete strangers. at best it saddens me.

I mean seriously i sit and over see the way those around me treat my love and begin to wonder if it makes a differance what I think...so long as I am there for their selfish needs...no I don't really mind but those same people turn their backs on the people who love them most..I don't need to name names they know who they are. I just hope the powers that be spare them when karma kicks in...when they are faced with being alone, scared and in need. My darling suffers because they fear reality, they can not deal....his sorrow touches my heart and slices strait through, How can those who call them selves family act so cold when their member needs them most...No one says they have to agree with what has happen only dont close him out...yell scream, bitch...go ahead...he dont mind so long as he knows u do so in love...*shakes head*** its sad, it really is...I for one do not like to be alone so no matter what I'm here strong, tall and sticking to my values...If something was to happen to him, I will not wake saying "I WISH" not this time, I learned that lesson before.

Until next time

Brightest Blessings

BA

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