"FAMILY"
2002-06-20 11:13 p.m.
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I have spent 90% of today with very dark thinking and thoughts about my darling David. I know how alone he is up there and how much I wish I could be there with him. of all days on the day of our handfasting...sadly i can not but there is more bothering me...Its how few of those he loves and calls family actually have written him even the smallest of notes or sent him the smallest of messages...even a helllo...*sigh* I hurt knowing he hurts, I hurt knowing that he feels abandoned in his hour of need..HE WOULD HAVE NEVER TREATED PPL THIS WAY!!!!!! and people claim family unity BULLSHIT!!!!! I suppose they would be ok if the people who they love and those who claimed to love..never bothered to say hello, never bothered to say hey, its gonna b ok, I still love u...you are still my friend, still in my thoughts...I don't even think most ppl know what the fuck family means...I do..I know that family represents BLOOD! it means thick or thin, that u support one another... Family don't mean that u agree with a person, its a pact that u will support the emotional state of another human being... That even during the the time u r bitching them out u r honost and do so in love...anger, hurt, and resentment is human nature.....but in a family its ok to still love a person even when they r wrong.... ****Gets down and kicks her soap box accrossed the floor*** I leave u with a bueatiful Dolly parton song called: Family (Dolly Parton/Carl Perkins) When it's family, you forgive them for they know not what they do When it's family, you accept them, 'cause you have no choice but to When it's family, they're a mirror of the worst and best in you And they always put you to the test And you always try to do your best And just pray for God/ess to do the rest, when it's family Some are preachers, some are gay Some are addicts, drunks and strays But not a one is turned away, when it's family Some are lucky, others ain't Some are fighters, others faint Winners, losers, sinners, saints, it's all family And when it's family you trust them and your heart's an open door When it's family, you tolerate what you'd kill others for When it's family, you love and hate and take, then give some more Somehow you justify mistakes, try to find some better way To solve the problems day to day, in the family You take the trouble as it comes and love them more than anyone Good or bad or indifferent, it's still family You choose your lovers, you pick your friends Not the family that you're in, nah They'll be with you 'til the end, 'cause it's family And when it's family, you forgive them for they know not what they do When it's family, they're a mirror of the worst and best in you When it's family, when it's family Let me be all that I should be to the family Brightest Blessings BA *PS I LOVE U DAVID* |
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