Fantasy Verses Reality Vol. 1

tattered emotions

wild dreams.

keep me awake

unable to sleep.

sad and alone.

I hold on in fear.

that the day I am hoping 4

will never get here.

My mind see's the worst.

I gasp for my breath.

my nerves never calming.

unable to rest.

I meditate,

I medicate

yet never find peace.

I long to hold

the love in my dreams.

I'm hoping and praying

trying to hold out.

no matter what I do

I can't shake the doubts.

I lay my heart hurting.

My tears fall like rain.

I feel like Im dying.

and going insain.

weakened I am

yet I am not dead.

my will power holding

on by a thread.

I must survive

I must hold on.

until I rest comfortably

safe in his arms.

(written with love to david by BA)

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My name is Jesilyn. I'm a forty year old mysterious spirit. I have survived the depths of poverty; experienced the wrath of wealth, studied psychology & several religions, evolved from a jagged family background where I suffered the hands of abuse, and now I stare life�s challenges in the eye.

Favorite Quotes

"The glass isn't half full or half empty. It simply needs a little ice."

"I maybe the queen of broken hearts but I don't stand behind the crown"

"If your ever going to see a rainbow you've got to stand a little rain."

"Good things come to those who wait."

"Life is what you make it."

"When life gives you lemons: Make lemonade!"

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