horoscope
for Tuesday, December 28:

Your usual tranquility gets a good jostling, and the fact that it's about a romantic issue doesn't help. Don't let your emotions run rampant before you digest what's happened -- it'll all make more sense tomorrow.

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You know I hate it when these things make forcasts like this. I mean tonight I have been up over 40Hrs and I stayed up because I was desparate to spend time with Mr. "Special..." Yes I'll call him that for now...

I love my time with him. He just knows what to say to spark my interests and keep me hooked. I just wish he would get the darn email out to me that he has been promising for four weeks...

He says he sent it 4 times and yet I never received it. I know it's a deep topic letter and it has alot of content in it that he is slightly uncomfy expressing so soon, but he wrote it, and he wrote it for me and I really want to see what he was thinking during a time that we were apart. I know what I think about when we can't be together and there is that part of me that is hoping to hear that he feels the same. But he shys away from it and keeps rewriting. Makes a gal wonder if his feelings change w/ the days...or if it's just his way of putting it off.

I know there is no use in getting mad, because I know as soon as I see him or hear his voice it's over. I'll melt like a popcycle on the 4th of July; in Texas even.... This happens everytime I start getting emotional. Atleast I am getting better about shipping out the email when I write it so I can't take back my feelings... I want him to have honesty even if it is hard on me to say.

So what, I am past the falling stage... so what if people fear I'll get hurt again. I'll never get anything by hiding from my inner thoughts and emotions, after all is't that the lesson I have been learning for 4 years. I always shy away and lose what I desire most. This time I am keeping my focus and working towards the goal that for some reason seems unobtainable.

I'm just a crazy, hopeless Romantic that wants to know the truth... (If that earns me the title insane... then I'll go down in history as insane about this special man...)

Brightest Blessings,

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