Fantasy Verses Reality Vol. 1

I�m still fighting all the confusing emotions that seem to invade my thought process. There is no way of knowing exactly what will happen in the future. If I had my way I�d flip my ponytail and have everything I need to even the odds that are stacked against me.

Some people think Mr. Golden is shallow, that he should be following his heart despite how hard that road may seem. Others think that just because he made the choice that he did that he is in no way in love with me and that he has been playing head games the whole time. Some people think that I am a fool for hanging on, while others believe that he will return that he is simply confused. Me, I don�t know what to think and it has become exhausting just to consider all the possibilities.

I want to believe that he loves me. I want to believe that he is going to come back or better yet that he will change his mind before he goes. I just don�t know what to do to guarantee the results that I want.

Everyone knows that patients have never been my greatest strength when it comes to heart breaking situations.

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About Me:

My name is Jesilyn. I'm a forty year old mysterious spirit. I have survived the depths of poverty; experienced the wrath of wealth, studied psychology & several religions, evolved from a jagged family background where I suffered the hands of abuse, and now I stare life�s challenges in the eye.

Favorite Quotes

"The glass isn't half full or half empty. It simply needs a little ice."

"I maybe the queen of broken hearts but I don't stand behind the crown"

"If your ever going to see a rainbow you've got to stand a little rain."

"Good things come to those who wait."

"Life is what you make it."

"When life gives you lemons: Make lemonade!"

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This is my diary. You are a guest. So, please respect my sacrid space, as you would want someone to respect yours. Remember, I do NOT have to keep a public diary. I do this so that others who have similar situations, do not have to feel alone...

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