Fantasy Verses Reality Vol. 1

Life is still extreamly rough like the morning tide. New things drift in and out. The mahor thing right now is that I don't know when Star and Jay are going to go ahead and get married and move on. It's apsolute torcher and all I know is that I can't wait for all this to pass and my life to get better.

At this point I find myself wondering what is worse the pain of losing my grand-daughter when they leave or the pain of having her parents rip my heart out while they are still here. I guess I'll just consume what time I can w/ her and make the best of each moment that I can.

I mean, I know one day Star will regret what she is doing, and until that day comes I still have three other kids to care for. I still have to get up in the morning and clean the house, deal w/ day to day life, and keep it together.

I suppose this is one of those parental nightmares that you can either survive or suffer a emotional death from. Either way I know I have to move on and continue my journey. In doing so I will be more capible of helping her later when she seeks advice.

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My name is Jesilyn. I'm a forty year old mysterious spirit. I have survived the depths of poverty; experienced the wrath of wealth, studied psychology & several religions, evolved from a jagged family background where I suffered the hands of abuse, and now I stare life�s challenges in the eye.

Favorite Quotes

"The glass isn't half full or half empty. It simply needs a little ice."

"I maybe the queen of broken hearts but I don't stand behind the crown"

"If your ever going to see a rainbow you've got to stand a little rain."

"Good things come to those who wait."

"Life is what you make it."

"When life gives you lemons: Make lemonade!"

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