Once upon a time, a woman began to journal her thoughts. Her goal was to leave a legacy for her children along with anyone else who may need to know that they are not alone in their daily endeavors. Unfortunately, somewhere along the way, her pride and life began to get in the way. Then one day the lady stopped publishing her words. This caused a chain reaction. First, it caused others to wonder what happen. Second, it forced the lady to bottle everything up inside because she no longer had the outlet for her emotions.

Today, I am here to announce that it is time that the woman reappears and apologizes both to the public and to herself. You see, I am tired of hiding how I feel behind a clown�s mask. I know it cannot always be perfect. Nevertheless, it is not always easy to admit that life slid backwards again. So here it goes.

Update:

I am 36 now.

Education: I am in my senior year of college and I am studying Applied Psychology. To my amazement, I have maintained wonderful grades (3.456), and have received many awards and recommendations.

Relationship wise: I am engaged to Keith Daugherty. He is a 32 year old, wonderful, fun loving, kind, considerate man, and we hope to be married August 3, 2009.

Living arrangements: Keith and I are currently buying out two story 4 bedroom home in SE Ohio. However we plan to move the kids away from here as soon as the house is paid off, because this area is not the type of place we want to be in. (Will explain that more later as time goes by.)

The kids: Well star is grown and married. She lives in Texas w/ her husband Jason and daughters Nevaeh and Faith. In addition, she is preggers again. Not sure how far along. Dylan is 16 now, no girlfriend right now, but then he needs some time to focus on his own self. (will explain that more later too). Karin just turned 13. She is struggling w/ being a teen and she is a true handful. For those who remember Star�s teen years watch out this one will shock ya!. Ellie is the baby. Still content at 11 to be the baby though she does look much older. OH and all 3 that are home are home schooled�.

Me personally, Im struggeling with my own issues. I�m trying to continue my schooling. Maintain my GPA, keep up w/ household stuff, and battle the community of ethnocentric fools that think they know my family. To say the least I am struggeling to stay sain, which is why It is time I come back to my diary and begin my life again. I know that this helps me and those who finds it so yea. Anyway�

raises her cup of coffee cheeres to u all and let us hope that I can keep with it this time.

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